Sunday, October 31, 2004
[saw] damn the saw website is freaking cool.. go check it out http://www.sawmovie.com.. talk abt some serious psychopathic killer shit haha.. i'm so bored.. oh i've found my uni of choice.. time to do some target setting.. road to.. haha.. oh well.. should be getting ready to go to mark's place.. whee.. halloween party!! though i doubt anyone will even wear a costume.. except shaar's retro outfit.. but not tt significant lah.. heh.. doesn't matter at least we've got a party.. do hope there'll be dancing and the food better be gd too!! haha.. i've been losing weight.. which is a gd thing i think but i'm getting smaller.. losing muscle mass.. darn it.. dun wanna look like a skinny fool again nor do i wanna look monstrously huge like chong.. haha.. i'll have to hit the gym soon.. but noone to go with me.. hmm.. maybe i'll azad or the gang.. oh well.. time to get ready.. later
10/31/2004 03:11:00 PM
[the feeling cannot be denied] been searching for uni's which offer marine biology.. but so far only texas a&m sounds attractive and pretty gd.. oh well.. still gonna look out somemore.. yay got a halloween party later today at the voon's place.. wonder if anyone's gonna wear a costume haha.. oh well dad's bugging me to get off.. nites
10/31/2004 01:14:00 AM
Saturday, October 30, 2004
[another journey without frens] boring day.. slept like half of it away.. oh well.. anyway went to sch for parent teacher meeting, thot it would be more interesting and controversial but it was turned out to be such a i wanna slp experience.. nothing wrong with me except the fact tt i dun give a shit abt mugging.. heh wat do u expect when u spent the last 17years of ur life not ever bothering to really study.. but i seriously gotta change tt attitude of mine, kinda bad actually haha.. guess my attempt to prove tt intelligence will always outweigh hardwork failed haha.. hmmm.. perhaps ms lee's suggestion for a lil reflection and goal setting might set me straight.. sounds pretty feasible.. gonna have to search for a university in the states with a gd marine biology course and the requirements to get in..oh well.. kinda busy now.. blog ya later
10/30/2004 09:33:00 PM
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
[for you] i'm so freaking happy!! woohoo!! dun have to fucking waste another year in ac.. tt's right i got promoted.. madness mann.. talk abt crazy moderation haha.. but seriously i think this a sign from God tt he's given me a second chance in life so i'd better make sure i do it right this time.. A levels next and this time it's no more playing around.. haha.. was happy like crazy when i saw my when i saw my result slip.. went around hugging so many ppl haha.. thanks SC8.. thanks for supporting me and being there for me.. i'm glad tt almost no one got left behind.. it's gonna be hard if one of us were to be retained.. the class will never be the same.. i'm just worried abt charles.. i really hope and pray his appeal will be successful.. i dun wanna have to say gd bye to a dear classmate and fren.. well i'm off to do pw.. bahh.. wat a spoiler to such a gd day..
10/27/2004 09:50:00 PM
[now i know i'm living for who i am] thanks a lot dhaniah!!! i love u!! haha.. thanks to her i've found my song, my anthem.. this is seriously one of the best things tt has ever happened to me.. u're probably thinking it's just a dumb song but damn it, i never knew a song could make me feel so gd.. haha.. somehow the most unlikely ppl seem to know me the best.. and somehow i'm so happy being told tt i'm different, it makes me feel so.. i dunno i can't even find the words to explain it.. at least i haven't conformed into the typical acsian and i'm happy staying tt way.. never liked the culture and i dun ever wanna assimilate into it.. [noone knows the way i feel a part of me i have to fight buried somewhere deep within my skin]
10/27/2004 02:14:00 AM
[te amo] dating game is a seriously fucking funny song.. u guys should go check it out, it's by ICP.. heh.. doubt anyone's ever heard of em.. bahh.. i'm up doing pw again.. wat a stupid waste of time.. oh well it is sorta my fault, i had a freaking lot of time to do it earlier but as usual my short attention span n procrastinating got the better of me haha. can't wait to get this stupid thing over n done with. anyway my arms are seriously killing me, i think i might have injured it on saturday. it's not aching, it's seriously painful. even excruciating sometimes. shouldn't have been so crazy. dun think i'll be able to train for a couple of days. i can't even do push ups or pull ups now.. i'm bored.. feel like watching a movie tmr.. hmm.. but see how my mood is like after getting back my results.. though i doubt i'll even give a shit haha..i'm starting to get really bored of the songs in my winamp. can't find anything new lately. mainstream crap is just so boring. oh well.. maybe i should take a break n play zoo tycoon haha.. damn i'm seriously bored.. hmm.. try some bep maybe it'll perk me up a lil.. darn my arms hurt too much to dance haha.. darn i'm procrastinating again.. at this rate i won't get anything done.. haha.. well time i try to get back to work.. lets get r-e-t-a-r-d-e-d
10/27/2004 01:04:00 AM
Sunday, October 24, 2004
[quit messing with my mind] bummer.. my whole body is aching like crazy.. should have done lighter weights yesterday instead of going all out with the same weights as chong n yihang.. wat a fucktard haha.. was so freaking tired.. after dinner i went straight to bed only waking up to go home.. slept for like 15hrs i think haha.. still damn tired and sleepy.. haha oh well.. hmm.. waiting for a msg.. guess she must be asleep.. mann.. my shoulders are seriously killing me.. they really feel like dropping off.. how am i possibly gonna train tmr.. i seriously have no mood train for some reason.. i'm just in the holiday mood now.. haha.. well i'm off gonna break fast soon.. later
10/24/2004 06:22:00 PM
Friday, October 22, 2004
[failure's not flattering] crazy monkeys! openhouse programme is like land n water training session combined.. but the only thing is it's for openhouse.. utter madness.. but oh well.. just whack ah but i hope i won't die.. gonna be damn embarrassing if i do.. but honestly after the gym programme how to possibly do land? and the fact tt i'm fasting.. heh.. talk abt gung ho.. why can't we just walk around n act macho haha.. i think with ppl like chong, yihang, ben n nadim ppl will be quite impressed already.. though i seriously think the girls will just scare everyone away haha.. no offence but girls of they're built, how to not get scared out of their wits.. why can't we have any pretty n not so big girls in the team.. oh well.. moving on.. got my results today.. looks like i'm on the road to retaining.. heh.. dun care lah.. i've been given 2 options, retain or drop out, see how it goes.. if i get even more sick of ac as i already am then i'll drop out.. why stay in somewhere i'm not happy in.. see freaking fuck faces tt i dun wanna see all day everyday.. piss the living hell out of me.. i know some of u ppl know who i'm talking abt haha.. but fuck it.. anyway i'm so proud of my juniors from amb.. everyone did so well for prelims.. i'm especially proud of josh n my perc juniors.. one 6, two 7s and one 10.. hope they get to go the sch of their choice.. i know josh will confirm go to rj.. bloody 6pointer!! mann.. rais got into rj, josh got in.. i'm the only loser out of the 3 of us to make it.. wait more like get stuck in ac.. and now i'm gonna retain.. fucking pathetic.. heh.. haven't even celebrated the fact tt SC8 is champs for ac games. happy tt we managed to at least leave behind a small legacy though i doubt anyone will care or even remember in years to come. oh well.. signing off
10/22/2004 09:44:00 PM
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
[freaking fucktard] oh fuck.. today is seriously a bad day.. saw someone i wish i didn't ever have to see again in this lifetime, waited for almost 3fucking hours for the stupid canoeing meeting (freaking waste of time!), couldn't play lan cos the server was full.. the only gd thing tt probably happened was i found n bought a pretty nice t-shirt n got a "new" pair of shoes.. heh.. got damn pissed off waiting for those fuck-tards outside the gym.. they specifically told us outside the gym n the fucking meeting went on in the void deck.. n nobody fucking took the initiative to even call me.. ok i know i'm not a prominent member but if u're gonna call for a meeting fucking make sure ur members are taken into account.. wat's wrong with the management.. and seriously there was no need for a meeting.. it's like one half discusses while the other is totally oblivious to wat's going on.. might as well the big fucks discuss among themselves n just tell us wat to do.. i could've left sch at freaking 11+!! so many things i could've done.. bahh.. nvm.. sorry no offense ppl.. just had to let go some steam.. hate having my time wasted.. enough of it is done in sch already, dun need having my cca wasting my time too.. some ppl have something called a life u know.. somehow eminem's go to slp suddenly sounds damn gd.. haha.. somehow any fucktard song tt scolds or insults a bitch appeals to me.. oh well.. oh yeah word of the day.. FUCKTARD!!! after lan i was totally hooked onto tt word haha..
10/19/2004 10:08:00 PM
Monday, October 18, 2004
[shut up n die bitch] whee!! i'm gonna retain.. oh well fuck it.. looks like another year in damn ac.. sian.. anyway the chill out sounds of ministry of sound is pretty gd shit.. damn calming.. makes me feel like i'm in a bar.. today's a bloody boring day.. total waste of time going to sch.. i do nothing but talk cock n slp.. might as well dun go.. then after sch, i was supposed to go for training, but my bright maid did something silly n i had to rush home.. felt so bad cos i had to miss training.. oh well.. maybe i'll drop by the gym tmr.. but i'm seriously how am i supposed to train.. no water.. dehydration is seriously not nice.. had it during ac games.. urgh.. felt like i was gonna die.. haha.. life is seriously boring.. the fasting month is seriously spoiling it for me.. i'm so restricted.. damn it.. then everyone is like doing their own stuff.. n poor me is left all alone.. sobs.. mummy i got no frens!! haha.. for some reason i dun really feel like blogging.. realised there's nothing to really talk abt.. oh fuck.. well hopefully tmr will be more fun then at least i'll have more shit to talk abt.. gd nite..
10/18/2004 10:35:00 PM
Saturday, October 16, 2004
[bust out the moves] damn i love THE WADE ROBSON PROJECT!!! it's so damn cool. i wish i could bust out moves like those. i even went to download a whole buncha videos to learn some moves haha.. but i'm not saying i wanna be one of those poseur "breakers".. the only thing they're breaking is their bones haha.. anyway felt super lethargic today.. as in seriously no fucking energy.. i can't even do 15pull-ups.. how embarrassing.. gotta start training again.. dun like being so weak but i dun wanna get big either.. so not right.. urgh.. gotta fast for a whole month.. so gonna impair my training but tt's not the bad part.. i haven't even gone to any parties yet.. damn it.. and next sat's jason's party n i can't even go.. this really sucks.. really got this urge to bust out some moves, not tt i can but yeah just go mad at least haha.. i'm just so hyped up by the whole wade robson project thing haha.. hmmm.. was thinking of organising my own party this december.. grace is so into the idea haha.. oh well.. i'll see how it goes later..
10/16/2004 11:54:00 PM
Thursday, October 14, 2004
[i am hated] wat the fuck seriously.. captains ball with sc2 was fucking screwed up.. god damn referees.. totally fucked up.. and those motherfucking sc2 shits.. play so fucking roughh, but of course the only thing we can do is fight fire with fire.. it was kinda fun kicking their ass though eventually we lost due the fucking referees obviously stupid judgements.. i want another match to settle our lil dispute.. i will rip tt fatmond to shreds.. fucking fat bastard.. fat ppl deserve to die of myocardioinfarction.. just cause their big doesn't mean they can throw their weight around.. i hate fat ppl.. hope bendy will turn out gd for us.. we're really banking on this for a medal.. anyway went to kap this morning for breakfast, screw the bacaleurette(however u spell it) service n pw lectures.. what a waste of time.. then the gang made our way to cdans for golf n laser mania.. golf is fucking fun.. for a first time i think i did pretty well.. the furthest i drove the ball was 140ft or was it metres? haha.. laser mania is damn fucking fun too, sweat like some pig in tt damn maze.. but super madness.. i got the highest score for the whole game woohoo.. my team's score was double tt of the others.. wat a thrashing.. oh well they were kids.. nvm.. i've yet to beat yanwen n mark's scores.. fuck nvm next week.. oh well.. gonna go get some rest for tmr.. sians gotta start fasting..
10/14/2004 09:27:00 PM
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
[the world is after me] heh thot no one ever reads my blog. oh fuck it. i'm flattered haha. ppl probably think i'm sick psycho disturbed shit. WELL I AM!!! haha.. anyway i'm so gonna join devian in his jackass shit escapades.. LET THE JACKASSING N FREEWALKING BEGIN!!! he's form of entertainment is exactly the shit i was looking for.. non-conventional ideas of fun.. life may not be so bad after all haha.. all hail the cat. high jackasses! piss off u ac "too cool to do anything stupid" jackshit ppl!!
10/13/2004 10:45:00 AM
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
[game over] had damn lot of fun at shar's place today.. wish everyday could be like this.. AvP-ing, watching movies, pigging-out.. better than going to the "fun n happening" sch.. fuck it.. just wanna drop out of sch n stone but i can't be like a typical mat.. i'm too gd for tt.. haha.. anyway.. feel kinda fucked up right now.. dunno why.. oh well.. clar seems to think THE BITCH is known heh.. whatever.. noisy, crazy act cute piece of shit.. hard to not know who she is.. haha.. tt made me feel a lot better.. tmr's bio spa.. another freaking waste of time.. go to sch so early for just a dumb 1hr paper then go home.. how stupid.. seriously can't the authorities of the education system think of something better to do.. well going out with ben after tt.. got lotsa stuff to catch up on.. and need to do a lil shopping.. found a damn nice line of clothing just now, exactly what i've been looking for and it's not too fucking commercialised n poseur like all the shit teens are using today.. i'm so bored.. so sick of life.. feel like cutting myself over n over again.. my mind's seriously out of control.. now i understand why teens go totally berzerk suddenly and start shooting ppl n all tt shit.. with this much crap going on in their minds i'm not suprised tt they snapped.. mum thinks i'm disturbed.. fuck it.. the whole world is my enemy!!
10/12/2004 10:20:00 PM
Monday, October 11, 2004
[wat's ur problem] damn.. i'm feeling super hypocritical abt myself.. my self-esteem is really going down the drain suddenly.. damn.. i'm a loser with no life n no money.. hate myself n my life.. urgh!!! i'm fat, i'm ugly, i'm broke, i'm dumb.. i just wanna hide in a hole n rot away till the end of eternity.. hate this feeling..
10/11/2004 10:54:00 PM
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10/11/2004 08:27:00 PM
[have i waited too long] feeling kinda weird today for some reason. like i lost something. oh well. spa was pretty ok. this is like the first time i actually knew wat to do haha. still think spa is seriously a damn waste of time. anyway went to town with lawrence, jeremy n syed.. didn't really do that much except talk cock.. but it was quite funny.. really wondering why i couldn't bullshit yesterday as much as i did today.. oh well.. hey lawrence so is the challenge on? haha. talk abt living up to the name of ac haha.. this is so gonna be fun. mann.. promos are "over" but nobody wants to go out.. sian.. wat's wrong with ppl these days.. bummer..
10/11/2004 06:59:00 PM
Sunday, October 10, 2004
[real a lie] i'm freaking tired but nvm thot i'd blog a lil bit.. hmmm.. went out with biatch today.. think i messed up big time, probably bored the shit out of her haha.. sorry.. anyway we watched resident evil, thot it was pretty cool contrary to wat ppl say.. i've always been into senseless violence n action haha.. fuck world peace.. oh well.. hmmm.. talking to guang now, or more like making fun of him.. donald chew!! haha.. nothing beats making fun of a blur cock like him.. i'm quite a blur cock myself oh well.. haha.. do onto others wat others do onto u or something like tt.. haha.. well i think i'd better go get some slp.. gd nite ya'll
10/10/2004 11:41:00 PM
Saturday, October 09, 2004
[slit wrist theory] mann.. i just heard something really messed up.. only 2days after breaking up n already dating someone else.. wat an asshole.. should be shot.. it's sad to see a fren go through wat i went through during Os.. anyway had bio yest. paper was pretty ok.. i'm pretty confident for this one.. well i'd better get a decent grade i didn't slp the entire of last nite coz i was tryna cram a whole years worth of work in my head within 7hrs haha.. madness but very effective.. oh well.. promos as gd as over!! WOOHOO!! but fuck lah.. nobody wanna go out.. gd thing i got the gd old ASS CO. to depend on.. hmm.. clar's upset.. gonna cheer her up.. later peeps
10/09/2004 01:22:00 AM
Thursday, October 07, 2004
10/07/2004 07:45:00 PM
[lets get retarded] math sucked.. chem sucked.. damn i'm so gonna retain.. i'm seriously suffering from a lack of slp.. totally blanked out during both papers.. i so dun wanna spend another year in ac.. not say very fantastic place to be in.. anyway which sch is ever a fantastic place to be in.. studying sucks, especially when u're forced to study stuff tt is so completely useless n nonsensical.. why can't we do something more interesting in sch.. too much theory involved.. oh well.. sorry to all u fucking muggers tt read this but it just ain't my style.. just dun see the point in slogging for something so meaningless.. i'm bored.. gonna try n study bio.. i'm still on cell structure haha.. i've been telling myself to start for the past 3hrs haha.. too many distractions and i gotta slp.. so sleepy.. vision keeps blurring for some reason.. irritating.. nvm after tmr P-A-R-T-Y!!! ok i think i'd better start getting to work..
10/07/2004 07:28:00 PM
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
urgh.. thanks to dear clar i'm writing this entry for the 2nd time.. irritating.. U'RE EVIL!!! haha.. anyway today is damn boring.. stayed home to mug.. or at least try to.. but i managed to cover quite a bit.. oh well.. i'm finally gonna finish chem at least i think so haha.. chem papers tmr.. oops! hmm.. i so can't remember wat i wrote just now.. damn.. anyway had gp yest. i think it was pretty ok.. i'd say a gd start.. but i think my essay isn't as well done as i thot it is, sorta realised it just now.. gonna cost me quite a few marks.. oh now i remember.. i need new specs.. or at least change my lenses they're scratched beyond redemption and cos of tt i can't really see properly.. should i get plastic rimmed ones? they do look kinda cool but i can't get red.. fuck.. oh well.. shall get on with mugging n talking to clar.. for some reason we've been talking for quite a bit.. it's fun talking to her, damn full of shit haha.. well ciao
10/05/2004 09:14:00 PM
Sunday, October 03, 2004
[fuck the world] today's a damn bloody fucked up day.. no idea why but yeah.. it's like fuck is the word of the day for me.. haha.. and rightfully the song of the day would be FUCK THE WORLD BY ICP. oh but bicentennial man was on today.. love that movie it's really touching i always feel like crying while watching it.. hey i'm not tt bad a person i've got a sensitive side too haha.. oh well fuck it.. gonna go mug..
10/03/2004 11:14:00 PM
[fuck the world] damn today's a fucked up day.. dunno why just feel like the word of the day is FUCK therefore the song of the day is rightfully FUCK THE WORLD by ICP
10/03/2004 10:59:00 PM
Saturday, October 02, 2004
[i felt the hate rise up in me] i'd say today was one of my more productive days.. managed to do quite a bit of chem.. damn it, 2days to promos n i haven't even done half of my revision.. and somehow i still can't be bothered.. why else do u think i'm here blogging haha.. hmmm.. suddenly i'm so addicted to slipknot, it's not really noise like ppl think it is.. i mean yeah generally their songs are rather fast n heavy.. so not like the mainstream shit tt everyone listens to.. but they do have some mellow n melodic songs here n there.. and best of all they help me reduce my hate levels for some reason.. i'm turning into some kinda hate machine over the past few months.. *i wonder why* haha.. but yeah somehow crash n heavy metal keeps those levels in check.. the more i listen to those mainstream shit the more pissed off i get.. oh well.. a lil rage always does one gd, i guess it ensures mental sanity.. which is a logical explanation as to why god might have allowed violence to rage on earth, the possibility of an all peaceful earth might actually result in self-destruction rather than gd.. an insight i got from watching the matrix haha.. whoever tt said the show doesn't make sense obviously has a simple mind tt belongs in the dumps.. so fuck world peace u dumb blondes.. anyway should i go mug? kinda no mood to study anymore.. no mood to do anything but stone actually.. oh n i'm fucking broke this week.. sheesh.. had to pay for so much crap.. irritating.. can really do with more cash right now.. urgh.. oh well too bad i wasn't born into a rich shit family..
10/02/2004 10:33:00 PM
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