this is who i am: 11/01/2004

Monday, November 29, 2004

[another face that i dunno] i'm back to being bored and having nothing better to do except study.. think i'm gonna fail my supp papers next yr.. i feel like nothing's going in.. anyway decided that sales just wasn't my cup of tea so i quit.. sorry guys.. bored bored.. went for the amb bbq on sat..the kids are getting cuter every year.. then i met up with nasha and i made a new fren brandon.. nice guy.. after bitching around with nasha and doing a lil window shopping for my wallet, i rushed home to bathe and change before going out again.. got dragged out to the party at rouge.. i so wasn't in the mood to go, was already falling sick but oh well i already promised those buggers.. anyway bumped into daniel in the train.. he was on the way back after sending jacq and gerry home.. i realised that snow queen was that night haha.. oops sorry but i totally forgot abt it.. yeah back to the party.. IT WAS FUCKING HORRIBLE!!!! dude what the fuck were you thinking.. i know the organiser was trying for the zouk effect but honestly just stick to hiphop and RnB and leave zouk to do wat they do best.. what a waste of time.. stayed home on sunday cause i fell really sick, got a fever and i lost my voice.. bahh.. i slept for 20hrs that day i swear haha.. i came home at 4 slept till 1.. woke up to eat and watch tv till 2.. went back to slip till 5.. eat and watch tv again.. then went back to bed at 8 slept till 9 today.. haha.. and yeah today i'm stoning at home yet again.. going to buy my new phone later.. that's if dad makes in home in time.. been fucking delaying for almost a year.. the guys always so busy.. hmmm.. zouk out coming soon.. wonder if i can get in.. and i'm getting really sick of the mp3s i have.. keep listening to them over and over again.. though yes i still who i am very much.. thanks dhaniah.. oh well.. think i'll go play heroes for a while again before having dinner..

11/29/2004 05:25:00 PM

Friday, November 26, 2004

[to the end] it's been a while since i blogged, like last week.. been pretty busy..urgh feel so unaccomplished in my studying this week. monday n tuesday went out visiting with ac and ass ppl respectively then wed till today i keep getting called back to the office.. gd thing i can chill out at the bbq n the party tmr.. and sunday till tuesday i'll be a fucking crazily busy at the office again.. oh well.. at least i'll get paid for not really doing anything but talk haha.. hmm... got this weird habit of waking up at 8.15am sharp every morning.. the interesting mechanisms involved in our body.. wonder how i'm possibly gonna go back to sch.. sheesh.. oh yeah.. i still haven't gone shopping for my new stuff yet.. i need a few new t-shirts, new shoes and a new wallet.. tore a tshirt recently and another shrank after being washed haha.. retarded.. realised i dun have a decent shoe wear out and gotta get rid of that old fugly billabong wallet.. hey voon-tat when we are we gonna go shopping huh bastard? haha.. oh went out with josh on wed to watch before sunset (after grace cancelled on me :X) haha.. anyway damn nice show suprisingly.. it's like an all-talk movie but it was beautiful.. actually seems kinda gay tt i watched tt kinda show with a guy haha.. oh well.. i say it deserves 5 STARS!!! a pity i didn't watch the first movie before sunrise would've made the movie more complete..anyway then we went to do a lil window shopping.. i seriously had to give tt guy a few fashion tips.. not saying tt i'm very well dressed most of the time but dude pls dun wear tt out ever again!!! haha.. no offence bro.. finally introduced him to the beauty of levis jeans and he loves it too!!! woohoo!!! sheesh i'm a levis freak.. i think a quarter of my wardrobe is levis.. the only thing i lack is the undies and socks.. anyone wanna volunteer to buy for me? christmas is coming soon you know haha.. oh yeah talking abt movies just now.. OI BIATCH REMEMBER OUR MOVIE MARATHON ALRIGHT!!! triple threat.. saw, shutter and the forgotten.. nice.. hmmm.. i'm getting bored.. nobody's online now.. oh well i think i'll go play heroes.. oh nasha i miss you too!!! meet next week k? hopefully i can find time in schedule.. later ya'll!!

11/26/2004 08:43:00 AM

Friday, November 19, 2004

[for you] went for the nco camp passing out parade just now, so proud of my kids watching them in their inauguration ceremony to be a full fledged bm and dm.. really reminded me of the gd days i had during my camp in sec3.. it was just like yest i was there, training to be a dm, to lead amb to its greatest glory in years haha.. i can still remember wat happened.. went to amk to walk her to sch, then met up with ah ma before going to presbyterian high where the shuttle bus took us to amoy quee.. heh well long story.. wonder how xinghua, aizat, shortie, eling and sean are doing.. haven't been in touch with them for bloody ages.. up till now we still haven't had our get together haha.. maybe i can try and organise something this hols.. hmmm.. damn.. i really miss being in band but jc band just doesn't seem as fun as sec. sch band.. oh well.. oh yeah.. amb's going to kl for a music exchange.. i wanna go!! haha..

11/19/2004 10:57:00 PM

[early morning sunshine] mann.. woke up with major backacheb today.. seriously didn't slp very well last nite.. just can't understand it, why the hell am i plagued with dreams of you.. and if they were nice ones i wouldn't mind but they weren't.. damn it.. i'm just getting so tired and frustrated it's been happening for so many nights that i've lost count.. suddenly feel so stressed, maybe i've always been feeling like this but i just try to run away from it.. oh fuck it.. i just feel like exploding!!!

*another night again
another journey without friends
another fight to wish away the loneliness i live
another circus show
another face that i dunno
another night of people asking what i have to give

11/19/2004 07:56:00 AM

Thursday, November 18, 2004

[turn around] bored bored bored.. went to register for SATs today.. whee.. so exciting.. anyway stupid mark made us walk so far just to get to that freaking place.. could've just taken a cab.. oh well.. then stupidly i went to play with him for 4hrs! WTF!!! could've done some productive shopping.. i've been given the duty of giving mark travis voon-tat a freaking makeover.. seriously mark.. cannot make it man.. haha.. nvm.. there's still next week to do it.. i need to buy some new clothes too.. i ripped the sleeve of one of my t-shirts today while folding my arms haha.. how retarded.. so malu-ating.. oh well.. went around looking for a new t-shirt after tt but couldn't find anything tt i liked.. actually i seriously dunno wat i like haha.. oh well.. i'm off.. gd nite..

11/18/2004 11:44:00 PM

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

[more than fine] selamat hari raya to all muslims everywhere.. heh.. oh well apart from being a few hundred bucks richer, i still dun feel any sense of enjoy or excitement as i used when i was younger.. never really got to spend time with my cousins or anything.. everything is just so routine and a formality for my family.. how meaningless.. gone were the days where i got to play and have fun with my cousins and relatives.. oh well.. nothing gd lasts forever.. yet again i'm bored.. i'm tired but i dun wanna slp.. weird.. dunno why but i just got this great sense of emptiness in me right now.. like i haven't fulfilled or satisfied myself though i have no idea wat i want.. anyway.. why do ppl find it weird tt i'm not attached or tt i'm not dating any girl on a regular basis? it's not like my life revolves around girls.. can't be bothered with them anymore.. evil creatures out to waste away the lifes of us guys.. hey i realised this entry is the more not vulgar one tt i've written in ages haha.. oh well i'll keep this one clean for once.. so bored.. should i go out tmr or sit around at home and play computer games.. i'm supposed to be at home studying but hell with it.. wat my parents dunno won't hurt them haha.. ah well i think i'll go see if there's anything to watch on tv.. or not i'll just go to bed.. gd nite

11/16/2004 01:04:00 AM

Saturday, November 13, 2004

[wasted] urgh.. i'm totally wasted.. went to rouge with ben, josh, elaina n mel last nite.. and gd old josh got a bottle of vodka so all hell broke lose after tt.. shit i never drank so much before.. was seriously tipsy after tt but i had fun.. oh CONGRATS BEN! for ur virgin experience haha.. shit my head's throbbing n my ears are ringing.. i think i'm gonna lie down again..

11/13/2004 01:02:00 PM

Friday, November 12, 2004

[i'm over you] fucking pissed off cause of last nite.. bahh.. today's gonna be a fucking weird day.. gonna go to sembawang shopping centre with josh to visit xiaowei as she studies.. like wtf.. oh well one of josh's weird ideas.. and after that going to town to meet with huijun.. josh's ideas are so impromptu and weird.. oh well at least it'll fill my time better than staying at home so not in the mood for my family today.. first thing i wake up and they start nagging at me.. not gonna be able tolerate tt shit for a whole day.. at least not with both parental units at home haha.. anyway hari raya's in 2days and yet again for some weird reason i'm just not in the mood for it.. it's like no longer such a big deal as it used to be.. oh well.. i think i'll go help out..

11/12/2004 10:13:00 AM

Wednesday, November 10, 2004

[pump it up] somehow today seems like a fucking long day.. maybe it's cause i'm stuck at home the entire day.. my maid got hospitalized yesterday and she'll only be back today so poor me's gotta look after the lil twerps.. oh well.. haven't stoned this much in quite a while rather refreshing, an entire day of not thinking.. not like i think a lot most of the time anyway.. wat to do, afterall i am a mat haha.. bored bored bored.. gonna break fast soon.. please do not read that as breakfast just as our dear clar.. she was like isn't it a bit late for breakfast haha.. freaking funny like who in the fucking right mind has breakfast at 6.51PM!! haha.. anyway voon showed me this site this afternoon.. DAPHNE ANG ROCKS!!! ALL HAIL DAPHNE ANG!! RESPECT!!! one hell of a goth queen.. what in the world is she doing in vjc and according to ben she takes 2subs?!? like what the fuck.. what's the point of taking the As anyway.. she's still gonna fail haha.. but she is fucking hot!! one hell of a killer bod.. although her style may seem disturbing to most but fuck it! i love it!! haha.. oh well.. i think i'll go watch some tv now, got like 30mins before breaking fast.. later ya'll

11/10/2004 06:24:00 PM

Monday, November 08, 2004

[hey now] damn.. my hair is totally whacked now.. was too fucking lazy to give jolene a call to make an appointment so i just went to the stylist near my place and ... WHAT THE FUCK!!! nvm.. shan't blog abt it.. sad.. oh well.. went to the gym today and i swear i nearly died.. haha.. my head was like spinning and my vision was totally blur and i felt like puking.. haha.. ran to the toilet to like catch a breather before i actually collapsed.. i know i know wat a place to get some air but it was a gd clean toilet and totally didn't smell bad haha.. anyway for some reason i liked the feeling.. it's just one of those weird things u know like some people feel gd cutting themselves or hanging themselves almost to the point of suffocation before releasing themselves.. yeah i know tt's sick but hey it's me! haha.. i think i need to get myself psychiatrically evaluated to see if i'm crazy or not haha.. anyway i'm bored as usual.. there's seriously nothing to do at home.. i've actually resorted to playing pokemon like WTF! haha.. actually it is kinda fun but still.. bahh.. got a bbq at ben's place tmr.. whee!! and caryn will be there hehe.. i think she's so cute.. and she's got a dress sense to kill mann.. hot! typical rich kid.. oh well.. i think i'll go play pokemon now haha.. bye

11/08/2004 10:04:00 PM

Friday, November 05, 2004

11/05/2004 10:25:00 PM

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

[i miss u] never thot i'd say this but i do kinda miss you.. heh.. oh well.. PW'S FINALLY OVER!!!! HELL FUCKING YEAH!!! WOOHOO!!! one of the worst fucking ideas from a whole list of dumb fucking ideas tt moe has ever come up with.. but i hope they dun scrap it off next yr.. i wanna see every freaking J1 go through this shit too.. haha.. i'm super tired n feeling kinda sick but i for some reason i just can't get to slp.. weird.. went to btp to play some lan but had a bite at the nonya delicatassen first.. the food there is freaking gd but too bad the nasi kunyit was sold out already.. heard it's like super gd.. oh well.. maybe next time.. i've been lanning for 3days straight and i'm probably meeting my old kakis meng n norman for lan tmr too haha.. my phone is seriously out of sorts so people dun bother msging me cos i might not be able to reply u alright. at least not till i get my new phone.. oh i'm going back to ass tmr to teach my lil junior macework.. hehe.. haven't touched it in months think i'm confirmed damn rusty.. but so cute i think the mace probably the same height as her haha.. gotta make sure she's proficient enuff to uphold the reputation of an anderson dm.. i think i did a pretty gd job at it haha.. mann i miss band camp, had so much fun there.. wonder how shorty, aizad, ling, xinghua n shawn are.. haven't been in touch with them for ages.. until now we still haven't had a get together haha.. it's already 2yrs.. oh well.. hope they're doing well.. i'm gonna try to catch some ZZZzzzss now.. nite

11/03/2004 09:53:00 PM

Monday, November 01, 2004

[everyone is fake] realised this world is full of hypocritical bastards.. haha.. even ur "frens" can bitch abt u behind ur back.. but i do tt too so heck haha.. great world we live in.. i am freaking tired.. 4hrs of dry runs.. stupid.. had no idea wat i was presenting, like i was just standing there blabbering nonsense.. oh well.. i think tt's wat i always do anyway.. today was seriously lan day.. first law, syed, jeremy n i went to holland v to play cs.. saw someone i really didn't wanna see at bk.. was acting like snake from metal gear solid after tt, tryna avoid being seen haha.. after cs-ing.. syed n jeremy left for training.. leaving poor old me n law with nothing to do as usual.. sian shar n edwin left.. nabei.. haha oh well.. then gave gd old charles a call and went down to btp for some avp action.. damn fun though law n i had our asses whooped by charles.. damn he's gd.. haha.. well i'm off.. gonna catch some ZZzzzs.. night ya'll

11/01/2004 11:45:00 PM