this is who i am: 06/01/2005

Thursday, June 30, 2005

[ross roy] i did the dumbest thing ever.. i thot i'd do my math papers today so i took a nice long nap in the afternoon and woke up at 9 to start on my work, but to my dismay, i couldn't open the files.. like wat the fuck!!! so yeah.. i've been doing the tys ever since and also talking mj.. i was like basically uttering nonsense but wat the heck.. anyway since i'm like so bored i decided to listen to some ross roy.. ahh the memories.. and after analyzing all three versions tt i had, the professional band, ..... n ..... .. i deduced tt anderson's gold in the syf 2yrs ago wasn't a fluke after all.. we really did play extremely well tt day and tt gold was a well deserved one.. i thot our intonation was gd, quite in-tune and our tone quality was nice, not as rough as ..... and not too mellow like ..... , we didn't have technical probs like ..... (yucks it was the most disgusting i've ever heard and it was so obvious), and we didn't sound as choppy as both ..... & ..... , overall i though i know we wouldn't have scored enuff to be considered the top 10 bands but it definitely wasn't a just made it kinda gold.. due to the sensitivity of the matter, the name of the other 2 bands will not be mentioned haha.. i really thot it was a mistake for amb, i mean awe, to have played song of the prairie.. it just didn't suit the band's sound and it was rather childish, even if played well and they did play it well, it wasn't deserving of a gold.. virginia or festa paesana would've been alot better.. it's not very hard but sounds impressive.. oh well.. too late for tt.. hmm.. i think i'd better get back to work..

6/30/2005 01:05:00 AM

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

[stupid] damn.. i feel pretty stupid.. ok maybe i really am stupid.. spent the entire time trying to do the crv tutorial but to no avail.. i only managed to do 1question.. the rest are like.. yeah i think u guys will get the idea.. i'm starting to panic now, prelims in 6wks and i've got the math test next wk.. i'm rather screwed cos i seriously know nothing.. fuck.. shouldn't have skipped all those math lects.. i'm just really worried for math right now, i know i can handle bio and chem with a lil more practice i think i can still be able to do but i'm seriously lost for math.. urgh.. jc life's just too short, in terms of the play time and study time.. i think i'd better get some slp.. gonna stay in sch and study maybe or get hophop to help me out at math..

6/28/2005 11:46:00 PM

Saturday, June 25, 2005

[damn spyware] i knew it was gonna happen soon but it had to happen today.. urgh.. so boring.. my comp died, yes it crashed.. and now i'm in the process of reformatting it.. so troublesome.. i wanna kill tt damn thing.. spyware sucks to the core.. who the fuck thot up of those damn things.. sick bastards.. so mutha-irritating.. anyway i didn't study today, feel so guilty.. but i woke up late and i had lotsa stuff to do, so i guess i'm pardoned for today haha.. oh and alumni band prac today sounded quite decent.. i think it's worthy of performance, anyway the pieces aren't tt hard.. but it's so weird to be playing pop again.. haven't played any pop pieces in a while except for best songs ever n tt was kinda disgusting.. sorry but ac just can't play pop.. makes it sound classical, too in-tune n technically correct haha.. dr. lee's bands should just stick to the typical band pieces n mr. lim's bands should just stick to pop.. i'm bored.. i think i'll go play some game or something..

6/25/2005 12:26:00 AM

Thursday, June 23, 2005

[mugger-ified] the past few days have been really gd for mugging.. i've been doing so much more work than i usually do and i actually feel like studying.. not bad i'm slowly turning into a mugger, kinda gross but i gotta accept it if i wanna ace my A levels.. anyway went to starbucks today to mug, kinda nice had a table to myself no distractions watsoever.. was so focused on my trigo and i've actually found the secret to not have to memorise the stupid formulaes.. everything can really be derived from those given in mf11.. quite proud of myself haha.. then we went to bk for dinner and a nice sharing session, it wasn't really bitching but it was fun haha.. but when ilyas mentioned abt him not really having real frens, it really hit me hard.. i realised i dun either, it's like everyone now is there for tt moment only and i dun really have someone to share my thots n stuff with.. kinda sad to think abt it.. really regret for not treasuring my bestest buddies eric n kal.. and now we've like totally drifted apart, i dun even know wat's happening in their lives and stuff anymore.. it's sad tt stupid things like bad relationships caused us to totally forget abt each other.. now i look at myself n i feel rather pathetic cos everyone sorta has their own gd frens n cliques, n i'm just so out of place.. bummer.. life's a bitch ain't it..

6/23/2005 11:36:00 PM

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

[memories] felt kinda accomplished today.. managed to do a lil more studying then i usually do in a month so yeah.. went to yaupng's place to study, got to meet up with some old frens and catch up too.. felt like we had so much to talk abt but yet we were trying our best to study too, it was kinda weird like we'd talk abt something n laugh abt it then suddenly look down and continue with the math question we were attempting.. but i had fun there.. i miss my old buddies, wish i could've at least been in the same sch as rais, it's like i dun even talk to the anderson ppl in ac.. i never did talk to shiying tt much so there's nothing to really say to her and tt china scholar dude, he and i dun even speak the same language haha.. and del, well she wouldn't even talk to me if i wanted to.. anyway, then we went to play dota.. well at least i haven't lost it yet, kinda rusty but yeah still can play.. speaking of yaupng reminded me of kahyen, his gf, who somehow also reminded me of joanne, who was in the same pri sch class as her.. so yeah i decided to go to frenster and send her a message to say hi and ask her how she was and stuff.. and hey i got a reply, i won't say wat was in the reply but i was really touched at wat she said.. after so many yrs, she still thinks stuff tt happened between us almost 4yrs ago.. i was just dumbfounded, i wasn't even expecting something like tt but i'm happy it wasn't like weird and stuff.. so yeah we exchanged numbers.. hope i'll get to see her soon, feel like there's a million stuff tt we have to catch up on.. i love holidays, i feel tt it's the time tt i always get to re-connect with old frens.. anyway tmr's math paper, after much consideration, i have decided to not sit for it.. haha.. it'll be a complete waste of my 3hrs cos i won't be able to do anything.. well i'm off, there doesn't seem to be anyone online tonight, so boring..

6/22/2005 11:46:00 PM

[mutha-bored] i have no idea why but i can't get to slp.. freaking mutha-bored.. anyway since i've got time to spare, i might as well blog abt today's happenings.. went out with the Fs today but unfortunately tt cheebye of a kusal didn't call desmond so he didn't turn up and kusal totally disappeared.. wtf.. so it was just me, bin, ginna n raj.. so yeah we went to cine to grab a bite n like talk cock n do some catching up then we went to meridien to play pool.. haven't played tt in ages and i'm totally rusty.. yup.. then ginna left for home leaving the 3 of us to eat dinner at ljs.. really dun like ljs food, it's so visually unappetizing.. after eating raj left for his dinner date with dom.. oh n we stopped a while to watch this dj thingy outside cine.. it was kinda cool but got boring after a while.. yeah then bin n i left for home.. quite an anti-climax to wat i was expecting but it wasn't tt bad.. oh then on the train i bumped into yashu.. she's really really cute, this small lil girl and she was lugging this 2huge bags.. quite funny to watch her, anyway being the gentleman tt i am *ahem* i took some of the load off her.. and i found out she lives really near me, like less than 5mins away.. wat a small world.. but it was kinda weird at first cos i wasn't sure if it was her or not, hardly ever spoke to her when we took the train to sch together with yingshi and she obviously didn't recognise me when i waved to her, got tt blur face from her, damn cute haha.. anyway tt's abt everything tt happened in my un-eventful life today.. i'll be going to yaupng's place tmr to mug.. or at least try to haha.. ah well tt's abt it..

6/22/2005 01:35:00 AM

Monday, June 20, 2005

[fart-tastic] urgh.. my tummy's really churning right now.. i think i might've eaten something bad at the bbq just now.. and now i can't stop farting haha.. yeah anyway the bbq was kinda boring, one of those nobody come n nothing to do kinda events.. oh well.. just read brendan's blog n i'm so at a loss for words.. the ending is so nice.. had no idea my "true that" had such an impact tt i was actually quoted haha.. and i loved the part where compiled all the various msgs the j2s sent to the section.. so touching.. i just love my section mates but those neh nehs always miss all the band outings.. irritating.. aiyah i miss the band so much.. although i've been seeing most of them the past few days but it's just weird.. no more band pracs to look forward to.. the talking cock, the bitching, the doing retarded things n of course making music.. ah well.. huijun is so weird, out of the blue she just suddenly msgs n calls me.. then we start talking for a bit.. and probably gonna go out with her tmr or sometime this week.. and the last time i saw or heard from her was last yr haha.. random indeed.. nvm lah.. at least i got some company if i dun feel like studying which is like all the time haha..

6/20/2005 01:32:00 AM

Friday, June 17, 2005

[thank you for the memories] it's over.. within tt short span of 2hrs, time seemed to travel incredibly fast n before i knew it.. wham!! it's over.. my band life has officially come to a close with a nice little drumset piece.. what a nice way to end my band life n thinking abt it, tt was how my band life even started, cos of the drum set haha.. frenships were fostered, pictures were taken, tears were shed, hugs were exchanged n memories were shared.. and tt's exactly how it should be.. thank you acjc concert band for making my life in j2 so wonderful.. n to my dearest percussion section, i love every single one of you so very dearly, let us remain frens n keep in touch for a very long time to come.. u guys are indeed the best section mates i have ever had n i couldn't have been more proud of u guys after all tt we've been through for the last 6mths.. we've worked very hard from being the worst section to become, what i believe is, one of the strongest.. i can't find any section who is as technically balanced, we've got our nimble malleteers, our cool timpanists, the grand crashers n the insane drummers, and bonded, with our strong spirit n togetherness.. all the moments n memories we shared together i will always cherish.. once again thank you acjc concert band for making my life in jc worthwhile..

6/17/2005 01:26:00 AM

Thursday, June 16, 2005

[all gd things must come to an end] yes.. in less than 12hrs it'll be the beginning of the end, my last real concert ever.. i couldn't slp last nite thinking abt it.. can't believe it's over so soon, it felt like just yest i joined the band, how time flies in j2.. oh well.. dunno why but i just felt like blogging this lil bit before i get ready to go out and meet the section for lunch or more like brunch.. anyway i'm off..

6/16/2005 08:31:00 AM

Sunday, June 12, 2005

[burning up] mann.. the past few days have been crazily hot, i've been perspiring quite alot.. really dun like the feeling of being all wet n sticky, kinda gross haha.. anyway i'm like really bored, haven't had the mood to go out the past few days, actually i've been feeling abit under the whether, like i'm really lethargic.. i hardly have the mood to do anything but slp haha.. i'm growing like really fat but i'm just too lazy to do anything abt it.. ahhh how sad the life of pig is haha.. anyway been feeling rather sad lately.. thinking abt how my band life is gonna come to an end this week.. after thursday, it's all over my past 6mths in band will be all over, no more having to stayback till really late to practice or spend an entire saturday in sch for band prac.. i'm really tryna contemplate what it'll be like to not have to come for band pracs anymore, not have to worry abt figuring how to play tt particular piece n all the stuff tt i usually do at band.. never been so attached to my section n my fellow band mates like this before.. i know many of u might not understand this particular feeling tt i'm experiencing, especially mark who thinks i've got some mental illness for always being with the band ppl haha, but yeah i just love being in band and making music.. oh well.. save the emotions for later.. i'm experiencing extreme boredom right now.. dunno what to do and i have totally no mood wat-so-ever to study, never had it in the first place haha.. feel like msging her but i dun really wanna bother her heh.. oh well.. shall go find something to entertain me..

6/12/2005 06:41:00 PM

Monday, June 06, 2005

[smile] i dunno why but i'm really happy today.. must be one of those weird mood swings.. anyway i finally did some studying today, but it really is some.. just read through some thermochem n chem equilibrium.. spent an interesting few hours with matin n ilyas at the library too, of course we were bs-ing most of the time but at least we managed to get some work done.. anyway i nearly burnt down my kitchen today haha.. was frying some french fries but got distracted by the tv for a while.. so as u'd expect the fries got burnt and kitchen was all smokey.. remind me never to watch tv and try to cook again.. damn.. i can't believe i'm saying this but i actually miss my maid's cooking haha.. oh well.. tmr's the last day i'll be home alone YAY!!! i'm bored.. like seriously.. and i'm still waiting for mj to send me tt pic, guess she probably forgot haha.. nvm.. still tryna find more pics for me to put into my photo album so look out for it aight peeps.. oh yeah.. just remembered i got my ns check up tmr.. gonna be a weird experience i think, heard some really outrageous stories.. ah well.. but it's so bloody faraway.. and i'll miss the last sectionals tt the j2s will be conducting.. so sad.. can't believe my band life is coming to an end soon, i wish i had joined earlier.. i missed out on so much last yr, the swiss trip and all.. but canoeing was fun too.. i really miss being in the water, gliding on the surface, swimming in the not so clean waters of kallang, the cheering, the pushups.. well one should never brood abt the past and move on.. heh.. well i think i'd better go get my stuff ready for tmr..

6/06/2005 08:51:00 PM

Saturday, June 04, 2005

[happy birthday] HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEE!!!!! haha.. ok i've got only like 8mins left before it's no longer my birthday so i gotta make this fast.. anyway i just wanna thank everyone tt actually took the time to msg or call me and wish me happy birthday.. u have no idea how much it means to me.. it really made my day considering i had so many bad thoughts abt how this day would turn out for me, with my family leaving me all alone in singapore and all.. at least i got to spend time with some frens and had fun.. and i managed to do some shopping.. yay!! got a whole new outfit to wear, 2 t-shirts, a shirt n pants.. the whole 411.. ok i'm missing the shoes, new specs n underwear, but those aren't as urgent haha.. again i'd really like to thank my frens for everything.. i love you guys!! :)

6/04/2005 11:50:00 PM

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

[sleepless] it's like almost 1am in the morning(for your info it's way past my bedtime) and i still can't get myself to slp..i'm just so not tired n bored i can't get to slp.. anyway i think addictinggames.com deserve tt name cos the games on tt website are really very addicting.. was playing some retarded game for wat seemed like only 20mins but it was actually an hour and i just kept wanting to play haha.. but capoeira fighters 3 is damn gd though it took me like 3attempts before i got the hang of it but yeah it was damn nice.. totally raped the comp after tt.. ok i'm gonna very random at my thots right now.. can't really be bothered to think anymore.. urgh!! i'm having a major outbreak of pimples, so irritating.. not only is it ugly, it's painful as well.. and i seriously need a haircut badly, the last haircut was an utter tragedy but nvm.. shall go for a proper one this time.. too bad i got no time tmr unless i somehow go in the early afternoon.. but too lazy, i wanna slp in first.. oh trittico by vaclac nelhybel is really really nice, i think the band should play it for our competition in thailand.. adventurous but most definitely impressive if we can pull it off.. we do have the yuhua n rv alumni to contend with.. symphonic movement's a pretty gd choice too or fiesta del pacifico.. hmm.. got nothing to say.. haha.. oh i'm wondering if i'm losing interest in her, can't really be bothered to talk to her.. but sometimes while playing i feel like looking over heh.. crazy.. wonder wat i'm gonna do on sat.. got nothing planned.. dun think anyone remembered.. nvm not like anyone ever has anyway.. i seriously need to go shopping.. really really sick of my clothes haha.. aiyah think i'll attempt to go to slp lah.. so irritating got nothing to do online but utter nonsense here anyway.

6/01/2005 12:56:00 AM