this is who i am: 07/01/2005

Sunday, July 31, 2005

[irritated] i can't believe how self-centered and hypocritical some ppl can really be.. first u say u hate him so much especially when u dun see a need for him, and when something comes up u treat him a lil nicer and expect the world from him.. what kind of a fucked up attitude is tt.. was tt how ur parents raised u to be? sometimes i think ppl are being brought up to be too pragmatic.. they become so pragmatic things like morals are just plain forgotten.. it's really sad to see such things so rampant among ppl these days.. i mean i'm not saying i'm the perfect model or anything, i have my flaws but at least i got some basic courtesy and show some respect towards ppl even though i dun like them.. i was really pissed off with some ppl yest., it was like wat the fuck do u take him to be.. i'm not gonna include names but u ppl know very well who u r, unless u're so shameless and ur stinkin' hide is so thick.. spoiled my entire day and possibly a friendship.. thanks for nothing u fucking assholes..

7/31/2005 10:15:00 AM

Saturday, July 23, 2005

[lion's mane] damn my hair looks like a freaking lion's mane.. gotta go get a hair cut real soon.. anyway went to the canoeing finals down at macritchie yest.. saw many frens and got to talk to them a lil bit but could see the atmosphere was really tense, and adrenaline rushing in all the competitors.. i really miss rowing.. oh well.. ac did pretty ok but it was a disappointment tt the guys didn't get overall 3rd.. anyway they did put up a gd fight and their effort certainly didn't go to waste.. then i went down to town to meet up with sherie for a while.. i'm so not used to referring to her by tt name.. ah well.. talked alot of rubbish and looked at ppl walking past and commented on how they looked and dressed.. which reminds me, everyone says i'm fat.. sobs.. terrible ppl haha.. then coincidentally, when she left to meet helena for dinner, i msged jiren to like ask him out and the dude was gonna fly off in 4hrs.. damn talk abt gd timing.. so i went over to his place, and man i seriously love his place.. it's so huge and damn nice.. dude get ur parents to adopt me!!! haha.. anyway we had a nice lil dinner and after tt we went up to his room to play dota on his new laptop.. so shiok, it was damn fast!!! yeah then we drove down to the airport and said our gdbyes.. and off he went.. sad but he'll be back in 6mths.. and tt was abt all tt happened yest.. hmm.. gonna go out later but first i need to get some studying done..

7/23/2005 12:08:00 PM

Sunday, July 17, 2005

[have i waited too long?] heh.. did i do the right thing? well it's too late for regrets i guess.. i'll just have to live with it.. anyway today's concerts ok more like yesterday's concerts were really gd.. the internation youth wind orchestra is really quite impressive and they had only gotten to practice for like a week.. and it was gd to see so many singaporeans in it and especially seeing an andersonian there.. ruth u've done us all proud haha.. i love yasuhide ito's composition sinfonia singaporiano very cool and it's abt singapore!! korean dances was really gd too.. but of course the highlight of the day was the TOKYO KOSEI WIND ORCHESTRA!!! oh my gosh. it's like a dream come true to be able to watch them perform live.. it was just breath-taking.. it was so perfect.. totally insane, they truely deserve to be called the best band in the world.. really no words to describe wat i saw and heard.. talented ppl at their best.. heh.. i give a 9.5 for the concerts.. really gd stuff.. it was really a well spent 100bucks to watch all those concerts.. now i've really got band withdrawal syndrome.. i just wanna get to practicing.. wonder when i'll ever reach tt kinda standard..

7/17/2005 12:27:00 AM

Saturday, July 16, 2005

[exhaustion] never would i have ever thot tt just attending concerts can be soooo tiring.. i'm like so crazily tired.. 6days of concerts can really take a toll on u.. it's like i've been reaching home at 12am everyday and slping for around 4hrs only.. it's not so much abt the lack of slp, but the strain it has on the mind cos having to listen to so much band songs can be very draining.. and i'm not saying tt the bands and the pieces weren't gd cos i really loved some of them, it's like a totally new experience for me and i've gained alot from watching all these bands.. anyway i think i'll just do a lil summary of wat i thot abt the concerts..
monday: the hong kong wind philharmonia was really gd, their sound and intonation is just so magical.. beautiful organ sounds everywhere and they sounded as though they had string instruments.. it was like listening to an orchestra.. i was very impressed.. then later it was the university of florida wind symphony.. they were pretty gd though intonation wasn't as gd as the hong kong band but they had more impact and expressiveness.. a really gd band i have to say.. overall the monday's concerts get a 8 from me..
tuesday: unfortunately i didn't go for the north rhine-westphalia youth band.. but i heard it was very gd and i trust the judgements of my fellow bandsmen.. so yeah..
wednesday: the stadtharmonie zurich oerlikon-seebach was not too bad considering they were only a community band but i dun have much say cos they only impressed me a lil bit.. then it was the SENZOKU GAKUEN COLLEGE OF MUSIC WIND ENSEMBLE.. oh my god.. they were amazing just totally amazing.. students ranging from 13-18yrs of age and they were playing like professional.. with intonation tt was almost perfect and technical skills tt was totally outrageous.. it was just crazy watching them.. and it made wonder abt wat i've been doing the past few yrs in band cos i'm still so useless.. i was left speechless after the concert i didn't know wat to say abt them haha.. so wednesday's concert, i give them a 9
thursday: the chinese youth corps wind orchestra.. i didn't quite like the songs they played but they were quite ok.. but the girls weren't too bad.. the flautist was so so so damn pretty.. just staring at her the entire time was gd enuff haha.. then of course that nite it was the amazing frysk fanfare orchestra and the boston brass!!! this was another concert tt was utterly mind-boggling, breath-taking and left me totally speechless.. i was pulling at my hair and my face and perspiring through the concert.. it was so gd and entertaining.. at the end of the concert i went to get the autographs of the boston brass.. it was such an honour to meet them up close and shake their hands.. wow!!! i give thursday a 9
friday: the pacific symphonic wind ensemble.. a very small band and their programme booklet was totally cool.. very funky band i have to say and i like their stand to play the weirdest and most unique pieces ever.. though it was very hard tryna understand the pieces i have to say they really impressed me with their technical skills.. i think the singapore band scene should expose themselves to more of these type of pieces.. we're so boringly mainstream in our choice of pieces.. always looking for pieces with nice melodies only.. then later was the singapore armed forces central band.. hmmm.. this one i was quite sceptical abt but i was also quite impressed cos they weren't tt bad.. maybe not as gd as the other foreign bands but still quite interesting to watch.. i give friday's an 8..
now today's the last day and i'm anticipating a very very gd concert for both the international youth wind orchestra and especially tokyo kosei wind orchestra.. so exciting!! haha.. well i gotta get ready to meet my section for our picnic though it's really quite a wet day..

7/16/2005 09:18:00 AM

Sunday, July 10, 2005

[music heals your soul] ahh.. it's the first day of the whole week of wasbe conference concert series, and today we had the singapore youth wind orchestra, the singapore chinese orchestra and followed by the republic of korea navy symphonic band performing.. ok lets talk abt each band respectively.. the sywo was not too bad considering it's newly formed and just made up of a bunch of rj ppl, they weren't fantastic but i certainly did enjoy their performance, especially with heart and voice and the last piece though i can't remember the title.. next the sco, suprisingly, i really enjoyed their performance.. it was so interesting, very nice to listen to and visually exciting, it was just so mesmerising.. it totally changed my perspective on chinese orchestra.. and well lastly.. the r.o.k navy sb.. i'd have to say i was really impressed by their technical skills and i was shocked to see tt they were all so young, probably my age or just slightly older.. it was really quite amazing but unfortunately their repertoire was so amazingly boring too.. haha.. i was quite bored except for the occasional interesting parts tt come out.. hmmm.. well in general today's concerts get a 7.5/10.. i think i'll update everyday throughout the conference.. kinda interesting..

7/10/2005 11:17:00 PM

Thursday, July 07, 2005

[work work] sch work's seriously starting to get to me.. it's not really the amt of hw but i just can't seem to be able to do most of it.. and it gets really frustrating, i just really hate the feeling.. but i guess i've only got myself to blame for ponning all those lectures and not paying attention.. i need another holiday to seriously sort things out and get myself settled down.. i can't seem to get myself to concentrate on sch days and my weekends are always so packed with activities.. majorly stressed out.. wish i were in j1 right now.. maybe i should've got myself retained, then at least i can really make sure my foundation topics are solid.. there's so much shit tt i can't remember how to do.. it's mutha-irritating.. and i'm becoming very irritable the past few days and i'm always fidgetting in class.. i need some drum therapy to keep myself sane and unwind.. or maybe i should start taking long n relaxing runs by myself like i used to cj.. help me get fitter n clear my mind.. ok breaks over, should be getting back to work..

7/07/2005 11:03:00 PM

Sunday, July 03, 2005

[ambience 3] ambience 3, my alma mater's 3rd band concert, was held yest evening and i have to say tt was rather successful.. not the best concert i've ever seen or heard but it was entertaining.. i was so afraid tt it would be a flop cos just 3days prior to it, the band got scolded like shit for playing utter crap.. the teachers ic even threatened to have it cancelled cos it was so bad.. tt be some serious shit man.. but yet again, the resilience and spirit of the band shone through and they managed to pull it off.. there really can be miracles when u believe.. i still remembered the moments before the concert during the rehearsal, josh n i were like, "WTF.. how in the world are they gonna perform sounding like tt..", and i really was praying for a miracle to happen, tt somehow the gd luck of the band to always perform their best at the last min would occur.. but i'm glad tt they managed to pull their act together and put up a gd show.. anyway one of the songs viva la carnival of animals or something like tt was like damn entertaining.. highly embarrassing for me n the alumni too cos we had to run around in really cheap self-made animal costumes but it was rather fun come to think of it, running around like moronic insane-iacs haha.. and we were so dreading the moments before actually running into the hall with our costumes but when we actually did it, it wasn't tt bad haha.. the other songs sounded really ok, not spectacular but nice.. but there were those tt really brought back memories for me n the batch tt's a yr younger than me.. especially when u believe, it was really special for me n them whecos n we were recruits cos we were supposed to have gone up onstage to sing it while the band performed but cos the sch didn't think we were singing material it go scrapped.. but it was nice too see that this time the babies of the band got to do it for themselves and i guess for us too.. and i'm really proud of the alumni too!!! oh my god.. never did i expect ppl from fengxue's batch to come back and perform but yeah there they were.. all the familiar faces coming back together to make merry and perform gd music.. words just can't describe how i felt as i stood there up on stage with the ppl tt i've shed blood, sweat n tears with for 3yrs since i joined band in sec2.. i just knew everything would gd well and we really did put up a wonderful performance.. concerto d'amore never sounded so gd and jap graffiti 6 was superb.. the saxophones really sounded like professionals, i've never heard anything like it, not in my yrs in amb and not in ac either.. it was scary.. there's just so much i wanna say but i think i'll just take forever to finish haha.. well after everything was over, back in sch at the bandroom.. the sec4s step down from their duty as active bandsmen and announced the names of the sec3s who would take over as the leaders of the band.. i wouldn't say i know them all but if mr.lim can say tt he's excited abt the line up of leaders then i have faith tt they'd do a gd job in leading the band.. i really wanna see the band grow and establish itself, they've been given so much more support and opportunities than my batch and i ever got.. and i know they are definitely destined for better things.. which has got me thinking of setting up a proper amb alumni association which is outside tt of the old andersonians' alumni society.. i mean i was the president of the youth committee of the oaas but i dun find tt their agenda coincided with mine so i didn't really get myself very actively involved in its activities during my term as president.. i definitely hope tt i'll be able to gather the support from my fellow alumni to set up this association cos like wat ms chan has done with her sch's, i hope to be able to foster a close relationship between the current n past members so tt traditions and also skills, tt can help nurture and better improve the band, will be passed down.. hmmm... ok i think i've been blabbering too much haha.. well i'd better get back to work..

7/03/2005 02:07:00 PM